Beautifully Chaotic

Lets start this off by just telling you all my life is a rollercoaster ride.

Yesterday i went to court and was told my stuff wasnt even in the system. They told me that they would mail me the correct court date soon. Thats the government for you though. So after running eight blocks and worrying my ass off about the fines and the jail time i might have.. I got nothing.

Things have been ok between me and darin but, I know he's still talking to his ex. That kills me just thinking about it.. I dont know why he does it.. I mean she is not pretty and she is really fat and she does drugs and lets everyone fuck her.. I just dont understand. Maybe we arent in love. Maybe we just wanna pretend we are. i dont know.

So i left my phone at home today when i went to work and Darin wrecked his car. He couldnt get a hold of me and said when he called my job my boss hung up on him. which really pisses me off and they are going to hear about it..

My work is awful. I was in the kitchen today and all of the turkey i threw out because it had like diseases on it. it was all brown and red and looked like it had worms in it. Thats just plain disgusting. I think im going to be a veggitarian seriously.

So i have a long week ahead of me.. seriously.. i just need a hug!

and i just found out that.. Darin doesnt wanna do this anymore.. soo im probibly going home.. sounds better than anything right now.. God i need a drink!!!!